diSSapointeD~

today i woke up early in the morning, around 8am as i had to take bus at 10am to come back to my hostel... haiz...
i dun like the day, bt wat can i do?
i prepare all my things b4 switch on the tv to have some entertainment...time flies...
i had to go bus station already...
my friend was already there waiting for me, i was late... (paise ya^^)
i board the bus n start the journey T.T

On the way, i bought a cup of sweet corn as my lunch n manage to apply a petronas card mesra, haha...
i reached my hostel at around 4.3opm...
i first sms my dear dear n told him, then i call back home to tell my family...

i really feel homesick...
why after two months le i still feel homesick?
i feel a strong hatred for all the things around here... they are so strange for me (i means the things n environment?)
looking at my luggage, i was so lazy to tidy it up...
after settle down all the things, i call my dear dear as i feel like chatting to him...
bt......................
haiz.....................
i'm speechless now...
i dun noe what to say about that...
or can say, i dun have any words to describe that...
now, my mind is blank, i dun noe what i'm thinking...

i wish can have a better and fun life here...
i tried hard, bt.....

i started to feel regret now, but i cant do anything...
i wish for some one to help me, but no one could stand by my side n think for me....
why?

timE is GOLD??? @.@

y i always feel like lack of time?
i hate such feeling?
i have 24 hours a day as all of u, bt y i feel like my time pass very fast?

i juz bac from shah alam laz friday n wil go bac on tis sunday.
today already wednesday...
it means that i wil be bac there very soon, i dun like there...
i like my home...
hope to be at home forever...
haiz...

ntg more to write, nobody understand me...

mY pitY world...

all of a sudden, i felt like falling from a heaven to a hell...
ntg suit me, and nt happen in wat i wish...
feeling stress all the way with all that had happened, i dun noe y...
bt is that my life for my future?
i really hope no...

GOD, can YOU plz lead me out of the way?
i need YOU to enlighten me, really...